oh yeah

Still here

Yeah I m still here..but somewhat tired and exhausted...but things will sort themselves out.
One way or the other..cheers

for the sake of it

Best thing if nothing else turns out to work....?

Just do it for the sake of it. I sure had a rough time, tried many things, at best times all at once. I was desperate, longing for more.

But then I just let go. I did it for me, for the sake of it. And what happened, the love and the fun returned. If I like it I'll be alright. Everyone is a critic today, sure a good thing. So go on. Critic, create, finish ,fail...whatever.

The more I think about it the more I fail, big time.

Have a great day....

And so it goes

I don't care

I just don't care anymore. It is rather simple. The more you read the less you know. I love my blogs, I read them a lot. I attend classes that fine trim your technique, make your vision better, make you a better business person.

But what have I really learned yet. It put pressure on me, confused me, made me uneasy, anxious.

So, I stop, I'm sorry, I just don't wanna care anymore. I will make every mistake there is, big one and small ones.

For the love of it, I just love making my pictures, sitting there, loving some, hating the others. What does it change. For me, nothing. These are mine, I made them, no one else stood there in good or bad weather, wainting for that one moment that matters to ME.

When was the last moment you did something for you? We live in a great time, where great people try to help, and I love each for doing just that. But after 2 years of intense studying and following them, how far did it bring me?

So I search what I want, not what you want. I have some time to spare, due to the fact that I have to work 100% in a non photograhy related job it is just limited. So frag, who cares. I wanna make my pictures, great pictures to maybe just put on my desktop and enjoy.

Make great pictures of people that I like or find interesting. I love and hate the industry, but not what has happend to it.

Don't get me wrong, I'm not frustrated anymore. I love what I am doing, and this for the first time!

Best regards....